Why do I struggle so hard to fight loneliness? I strive to surround myself with people, and once the people are there, what then? I think it's just the feeling of not missing out on what other people are enjoying. God, may I seek after Your kingdom... but as humans we need companions. David had Jonathon, Adam had Eve, even Christ had His disciples... provide for me brothers, born for adversity. This life is too lonely to live alone.

I'm depressed as heck. Why is it so difficult to make God first? I'm getting tired of messing up and coming to God with the same problems... Lord, change this heart.