Went briefly over some points on eschatology today. It really doesn't seem like I'm living with eagerness or hope for the Lord's coming. Pastor Peter Kim said that if we're too caught up with the things in this world, Christ's coming will be an "interruption". Lord, may I wait for You. May I not be caught off guard. You are my only hope.

Even apart from college, small petty things like running, or getting a bike are taking the throne where the Lord should be... I wish I could say with Paul that I "count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord". May my faith be proven genuine. Lord, give me a burning desire to know You. Be my one magnificent obsession.

It's so easy to get caught up in "passion", and afterwards return to life thinking that that one episode of passion will suffice until the next time. Christ died, but He has risen to be the Lord of our lives. We cannot live for Christ only when it is convenient, or only when our emotions are stirred. Picking up the cross is never easy to do, but why do we so often think that if we're doing something difficult it is against the will of God? We can't pick and choose the "good deeds" that we're called to do. If we are to follow Christ, it means constant death to ourself. Only then, can we follow Him. Count the cost...

"The foxes have holes and the birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head." Luke 9:58