It's official, I'm not a runner. I lack the heart to run.

Guitar Decision 2004: Guitars are on my mind too often. When I'm feeling sad or tired I think of guitars to cheer myself up. Lord, be first in my life. How often we look to ephemeral things for satisfaction, but only You satisfy.

Fear and trembling: I find my mind wandering away from the Lord. At times I wonder if I'm even saved. I'll admit that I find it hard to believe that Christ actually died for us. It doesn't seem like a reality a lot of times. Save me God.

Do not harden my heart as You did Pharaoh's.

"Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden." -Romans 9:18

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Romans 8:38