The last couple weeks have been filled with a spiritual 'dryness' and a sense of numbness toward heavenly things. Much of this is due to the many 'good' things which have (as they so often do) replaced the great things. I have taken the gifts of God and worshiped them rather than Him, I have taken the disciplines and have made them my religion. I have taken all that God has given me save one thing, Himself. Lord, I pray that I would not lose sight of You, that I would not harden my heart and grow numb to Your word. Strip me bare of the things I want and give me what I need. Take my toys, my relationships and all other things, and make them Yours. Be my inheritance, let there be no other seated on Your throne. Open my eyes, break my heart, cause me to live for You.

As silly as it may seem photography has really taken up a lot of my thoughts and my time lately. I feel stupid posting this, and I'm scared because I'm afraid people might keep me accountable. If you look through my old posts you'll probably find a list of other things that I was distracted with at one time or another: bikes, computers, cars, running, guitars, etc. This list will probably continue to grow as I get older, but I pray that it would not be so. I confess, that I have not given God the glory that is due unto Him. I have not worshiped Him wholeheartedly, nor have I sought after Him as a 'deer panting for water'. And now I acknowledge my failure and realize that I cannot do it by my own strength. I have failed God and I have sinned against Him. Yet through Christ I find salvation. God, help me to realize my salvation. I don't want to become another zombie in this world, captured by its lusts and passions, but clear my mind with Your word and give me sobriety and zeal for You.