So I stopped drinking coffee for a while... maybe about a month, but I started again
that was random.

Well, I've been realizing how easy it is to lose sight of God in the midst of everything and still be reading and praying consistently... when I'm still clinging to "other things" I feel that those disciplines become merely external and have no internal effect... God, change me.
I think I could have easily been one of the Pharisees, I'm sure they were zealous, they read their scriptures more than anyone else and they prayed more than anyone else. The heart is deceitful, and I'm sure they were so convinced that God was on their side... but He wasn't. Though they may have sought to please God (at least externally) their hearts were far from Him. They did not seek God alone, but sought the praise of men as well. Without a heart for God alone we become nothing more than pharisees... To seek God without an undivided heart is vain, we must seek Him with our whole heart. Lord, my heart still clings to the things in this world, help me to let go.

"Purity in heart is to will one thing"

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God"