It's been a little over a year since I started this blog... time really does go by fast. It's strange, though, because it feels like such a long time ago and yet it feels like yesterday. Anyway, I was just reading through some stuff I wrote and I feel like God has brought me a great distance. Not that I really know anything more than I did then, in fact, I probably forgot a lot of stuff, but that I've been able to realize so much of what I just "knew". Well, it's only been a few months and I have (God-willing) many more months to come. Lord, what will you do with this life?

I don't know... I hated high school when I was in it, but looking at some of the pictures there's an odd longing (or something like that) for it. It's alright though, what I have to look forward to far outweighs what has passed. I'm sure when all the saints are in heaven, earth will be so dull and listless. O, that I might have a correct perspective now! God, change me and mold me. Lord, use me.

On another note, I'm going to China again this summer. I really don't know who reads this because it seems my xanga has captured the eyes of those who had once viewed this blogtypething.

In an odd, eerie way, it feels like this blog is a connection or a strand or something to my normal self. No fancy shmancy looking website, no pictures to lure people, just me talking. And I feel like I can be honest here, confident that there are very few who read it, and those who do read it, I'm sure I trust you(?) but even if I didn't, it don't matter. enough about me.

okokok. i need help. God, help. please.