Slowly, or maybe not so slowly, Christ is revealing to me a lot of things that I have yet to surrender to His lordship. It's somewhat difficult and sometimes seemingly impossible to surrender or bring myself to the point of surrender. Don't really know what to do in a situation like this, spiritual dryness or just wandering in the wilderness. I suppose this is all a part of the sanctification process that every follower of Christ must endure. We bargain with one who bore a cross.

"Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win. Everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified." -1 Corinthians 9:24-27