It seems like I need a miracle in order to change. Maybe the process is slow and I'm just being impatient, or maybe I'm not changing. When I'm around friends I find myself gossiping or slandering in order to fit in. Does this mean that I don't go near them? If I'm not being a good witness, maybe it would be better to have no witness. But I'm not saved by myself and it's the fact that I am a sinner that makes the "good news" so good. That doesn't mean that I should just sin though. All I can do is trust God, the author and perfector of our faith.